Sometimes things just don’t work out the way you want them to. I am broken hearted.
I want things to be okay. I want to remain friends, but it doesn’t feel like we ever got to a meaningful friendship. I take it as a good sign that you haven’t completely dismissed me after what I disclosed. However, you don’t call, I can count the number of texts I have received first on two hands (in a year), we have done a total of two things outside work. If I didn’t keep in touch I don’t think you would.
I want this to last. I really want to have a meaningful friendship, but its hard to hold something together in a vacuum. I care a lot more than I think you do…or ever will. Once you are on your own I don’t think you’ll feel the need to contact me. You’ll drift away like so many others. That is my worst case senario.
I don’t know what is worse- the fact that I think you’ll inevitably drift away or trying my very best to hold things together only to have the same happen. Why can’t I envision a good outcome?
Today, I was rejected. I met someone that I liked and we became friends. All I really wanted was a friend, but what can you do when you feel the way you do.
So I made the decision to tell him. Face to face. And I was kindly rejected. It hurts, but no matter what anyone says it isn’t his fault. He didn’t lead me on.
So now I have an answer. And he told me not to think it wasn’t because I wasn’t good enough. I think perhaps I got the sweetest rejection I could have. And we will continue to be friends.
And I will be okay.
Also, I have the most amazing supportive friends. None of them will ever read this, but thanks for backing me guys.
This is my life. My cat waits for me to sit on the couch at night and read so she can sleep on me.
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For my reference.
This is me!
Quorra, Tron: Legacy
New York Comic Con 2012
But, oh how I want it to happen…